Friday, July 5, 2013

High School Friend V Intro

I have this friend from high school and I met up with him the other day with another friend, and then I ended up ditching her because she was trying to manipulate me into doing things that I don't care for.
We will call him V.
This guy is sweeter than anything.
I meant to go to his place to hang out until my bf could call and pick me up, since it was closer to where he was so it would save him gas. My bf promised to take me to see fireworks last night. He never actually called.
V's parents are away on vacation and so I am actually staying at his house. I slept next to him in his bed last night. He makes me feel special, and even better, there are sparks that there never were with my current bf. We didn't do anything, because at the moment we are just good friends, but it has been such a vacation from my life and my worries to spend all this time with him.
I am done dealing with my bf at the moment. I am so done with the way he has been treating me lately. We haven't talked and for once I am just going to wait until he calls me and see what happens from there.
V is making sweet offers of help, and trying to tell me that he will always be there for me. I feel like I fell for that already twice and I don't want to be comforted by what feels like more empty promises.
Fool me once, blame on you. Fool me twice, blame on me. What about the third time?
There is something else in this equation though. While with both H and D, (my ex and current bf), I only just met them and were friends with them for merely a few months at most, fully knowing that they were interested in me before we dated. Now, I am not going to be dating this guy necessarily, but if I were to end my current relationship, and I can see us possibly becoming an item. I am not entirely sure what I am doing or what is going on. I am not making any decisions or changes at the moment.
I will however, point one thing out.
I have been friends with V since high school. We were friends for several years and that is a much better background indication of character than what happened with H or D.
Life is so confusing right now though. My mom does not want to rent me a storage space anymore, and I don't think my bf is going to help me with my things and so they will probably go with my parents to another state until such a time that I can take it all back which could be years at this point. I also have no idea, since my bf seems to be withdrawing and unwilling to help me anymore, how I am going to pay for my doctors appointments and my parents will be out of state. How do I get myself into these situations?!
I don't know what to say anymore. I don't know what to do anymore either. For now I will just enjoy my time with V and try to relax and forget. Hopefully everything will work out for me.

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