I just decided I want to do a fast. I haven't done a fast in what feels like forever. I can't go on like this.
It is Tuesday, April 9th, 2013 and 2 in the morning. I want it to last forever but we'll make it a 24 hour fast to start with. I would prefer a 2 or 3 day fast but I am not sure how things will go.
I am vaguely about 150 pounds. I feel disgusting. I was starting to like my body back when I was about 130 pounds. That was a few months ago if that.
I wish life were easier. I have no place to go. I don't want to live with my bf in his parent's basement. There are no other options. I don't see myself moving anywhere for at least another year if not more like two or three years. It just won't happen. I am not in control of my life. I have no say in what will happen. I have no way to earn income. I have to rely on others. This is the pain that is hell.