Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Reason To Be Thin #1

Reason to be thin #1:
Because your forty-something year old aunt, (with kids as old as you are), got a weight loss surgery and may now be smaller than you.

She was at least 200 if not 300 pounds before the surgery. I guess she was trying to give away jeans that she was too small for and I was a victim. I heard about it from a cousin too. It really hurt in a way I wouldn't believe.
"Hey Venus, your aunt was talking about how maybe you and this other cousin would like some of her old jeans that she is too small for now." I may or may not have appeared a little offended. But the fact was, she had thought about me specifically. Do I look that fat???
I couldn't tell how skinny she actually was though, because her jeans looked tiny but she still had layers of skin and/or fat around her middle and flab hanging from her arms.
So I asked what size the pants were.
"Size 12 or 14 I think." It could have been so much worse so I was pretty relieved. I admitted, (somewhat smugly perhaps), that at most I wear size tens right now, and most of the time even those are loose so I am really a size eight. But I was pretty horrified when I stepped on a scale in one of the bathrooms and found out I had ballooned up to a whopping 155+ pounds. Shock of my life.
So my entire five day stay around family, I skipped breakfast and most lunches and only ate when I had to. I am under 150 now thank goodness, but I am still horrified. Feeling hungry and a little dizzy all of the time was a definite rush though and I am hooked on the feeling again.
Just a side note, the reason I was out around my relatives on my mom's side was because my grandpa died. He had a stroke three years ago and then another I think, one year ago, and he's been on a downhill slide since. I really love my grandpa so it was hard but I found it wasn't miserable with all of my cousins whom had once been good friends. Also, the memory of him really lingered. We all felt like he was there with us, encouraging us to smile and be happy. He was such a good man it makes me want to be like him. I think he pretty much spent his entire life teaching at a school for the blind and deaf.
Anyways, I am doing several posts in this series of "Reasons To Be Thin". Hopefully the time taken on here will help me, and it would be great if these posts would help someone else too.

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