I can't even find myself inside my own head. This is what happens to me sometimes... I call it withdrawing into myself. I lose all... life. It's been constant for a week or so now. I even cut and loved it. I don't regret that. I won't even apologize for not posting. I don't really care. I could stop posting for forever and not think a thing of it right now. I reached a new low of 148.8 but I don't know how long that will last. It doesn't even matter anymore. As long as I cope by cutting, eating no longer seems necessary. What a weird thing that is, actually not feeling the need to eat when it's replaced by something else. I must be psychotic... And I only did it once- days ago...
I'm going to get fired. I've already been warned.
What will my life be without a path to take? I want out of here. But the world doesn't care what I want. It only cares that I suffer miserably, and all of you with me.
January 1st, 2013.