Monday, June 25, 2012

Eh thank you new follower :)
I might have a fear of 13 though (not particularly in the mood to explain at the moment but...) and this is my thirteenth follower. You are welcome regardless :)
Um, had to eat some hamburger helper though. Forced it down. Feel like puking and I mean like my stomach is putting up protest. Awful amount of calories I imagine. It tasted like too many calories. You know that taste... After being nothing more than business towards H, he sits me down- twice, to hug me and ask if I am okay and thank me again. I actually said, "what is this? Physical contact? What a strange device..." That's actually how I felt to be honest. When no one so much as glances your way for weeks and then suddenly hugs you, you would be quite mystified (and perhaps tear up a little) too. But I stayed cool, wiggled out of his grasp into this room and he has left me alone. So guess what he's doing? Playing a game.
I can't believe he actually tugged at my shirt and had me sit on the floor next to me, and on the second hug, whether to bug me or because he needed it I don't know- he put his chin on my head and perhaps... sniffed my hair...? I know he's done it before but all I could do was say, "I think I need a bath" literally thinking out loud actually...
Meh. Last night he slept out in the living room in the chair so he wouldn't roll over and bother his foot. It also elevated his foot. If he does that again tonight, I might be able to sleep but I can't say I was happy without the company. I find myself feeling a bit from both sides now, which is definite progress considering before I was only wishing I could want him gone.

1 comment:

  1. Hey babe, I got your comment. It doesn't deter me the way you loose weight. I am currently trying to loose weight in a healthier way that I have in the past. I've had an ED for 4 years now, I've had treatment for it twice, but I always relapse. I think it will always be a part of my life. So basically I do wanna follow your blog regardless of how you loose weight :) xXx To be fair, the way i loose weight always borders on unhealthy...but im just trying to do the best I can :)